Thursday, July 10, 2008

Blog birthday

Last year, on this day, I was on vacation. In fact, I think it was my first day of vacation. Mr. J and I didn't have the money to go anywhere; I had also just assumed management of my branch at work and couldn't be out of touch with my office, but we needed a break. So we took two weeks off with no plans beyond day trips.

The blog I had at the time had been broken, with no hope of repair, and I missed that outlet. So I made this blog. At the time I intended it to be mostly a place for me to talk about my religion; I called it "To Walk a Pagan Path" and I was going to explore my inner Wiccan and be super-duper spiritual girl. It has turned into much more, and admittedly much less, than that for me.

To take a page out of the lovely Aerolin's book, I thought I'd talk about what I've learned about me:

  • I am not Wiccan
  • I haven't done as much healing as I thought I had in some areas
  • I have done a lot of healing in areas I thought were still raw for me
  • I am learning to let go
  • I lack compassion in a general sense
  • I love people I have never met in person
  • Personal stories of growth and courage can move me to tears
  • I feel that experiencing my emotions to their fullest is intrinsic to my own sanity
  • I love change
  • I love challenge
  • I enjoy poking at my own emotional bruises
  • My writing sucks
  • I still build emotional walls around myself, even after telling myself wouldn't
  • I no longer believe in God nor Goddess as sentient beings, but as opposite forces of the same energy
  • I do not believe in a creator
  • I still struggle with balance
  • I enjoy looking inward and of examining my Self
  • I no longer miss Colin's presence in my life
  • I am a solitary person, and in general do not enjoy spending time with other people

4 comments:

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

Happy blog birthday! And that's a lot of learning and growth! Yay you!

Jade said...

Thanks MPJ! Reading my little list made me kinda tired. :)

aerolin said...

As a co-journey-er, I'm really proud of you, lady. Those are some intense lessons you've learned this year. I'm really glad to get to walk alongside you in your journey. Huge hugs and lots of love to you ((((Jade))))

Jade said...

I'm glad you're here with me as well, Aerolin! I learn so many lessons from you. :)

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