Friday, January 1, 2010

Goals: old and new

I like closure and I love lists. Here's a little bit of both:

For me 2009 was about:

    Being inspired
    Connecting
    Acceptance
    Healing
    Learning
    Hating
    Drowning
    Making new friends
    Helping
    Laughing
    Loving
    Crying
    Writing
    Reading
    Developing
    Being lost
    Failing
    Succeeding

I would like focus my energies in 2010 on:

    Art
    Follow-through (yes, again)

Last year I worked on follow-through; I didn't do as wonderfully as I could have but I think I made progress. Which is what the not-resolution is about for me. I hate the concept of making and blabbering about big, serious resolutions, like save a thousand dollars or lose a bunch of weight or quit smoking. All honourable goals, and certainly worthy of being "resolutions".

No, for me the problem is that when I make such resolutions I fail. Miserably. I bite off more than I can chew and I overwhelm myself almost immediately. Enter guilt, shame, and remorse which lead me toward behaviour that is entirely counter to my original resolution. Dumb, huh?

Several bloggers whom I follow have focused their years around concepts; words that trigger an idea they work toward in the coming year. It is a very slight shift in perspective when thinking about "new year resolutions"; in principle, maybe it's the same thing. But for me, and I assume others too, thinking of concepts that I will try to draw into my life over the course of a year is much, much different from working towards a stated resolution with a (potentially) unrealistic time-line and so much pressure to not fail.

So it is with no guilt or shame I carry 2009's concept of follow-through with me into the coming year. Even though it is something I still need to work on, I did make progress in that area; something else that I experienced in 2009 was acceptance: acceptance that I will not always be perfect; acceptance that simply working towards a goal can be good enough for me. While I am generally self-accepting, I also tend towards perfectionism and being hard on myself when I feel like I haven't done it right, so this last one is sort of a big deal for me.

Another main focus for 2010 will be art. I have a couple hobbies that fall into the 'art' category and both need some stimulation: writing and fibre-crafting. I can work on both my goals at once, really, since it is often my art that suffers from lack of follow-through.

What do you do to gain closure from the last year and transition into a new year?

3 comments:

Recovery Discovery (R) said...

Sounds like you're doing that follow through thing, perfectly imperfectly. ;-) Happy new year.

Mary (MPJ) said...

Happy New Year, Jade! I hope your year is filled with art! :)

Jade said...

R, yes! And I am finally in a place where I'm okay with that.

MPJ, thanks! I'm excited to see where this year takes my art. My mom always said there is no such thing as bad art... I guess we'll see. :)

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