Blog birthday

Last year, on this day, I was on vacation. In fact, I think it was my first day of vacation. Mr. J and I didn't have the money to go anywhere; I had also just assumed management of my branch at work and couldn't be out of touch with my office, but we needed a break. So we took two weeks off with no plans beyond day trips.

The blog I had at the time had been broken, with no hope of repair, and I missed that outlet. So I made this blog. At the time I intended it to be mostly a place for me to talk about my religion; I called it "To Walk a Pagan Path" and I was going to explore my inner Wiccan and be super-duper spiritual girl. It has turned into much more, and admittedly much less, than that for me.

To take a page out of the lovely Aerolin's book, I thought I'd talk about what I've learned about me:

• I am not Wiccan
• I haven't done as much healing as I thought I had in some areas
• I have done a lot of healing in areas I thought were still raw for me
• I am learning to let go
• I lack compassion in a general sense
• I love people I have never met in person
• Personal stories of growth and courage can move me to tears
• I feel that experiencing my emotions to their fullest is intrinsic to my own sanity
• I love change
• I love challenge
• I enjoy poking at my own emotional bruises
• My writing sucks
• I still build emotional walls around myself, even after telling myself wouldn't
• I no longer believe in God nor Goddess as sentient beings, but as opposite forces of the same energy
• I do not believe in a creator
• I still struggle with balance
• I enjoy looking inward and of examining my Self
• I no longer miss Colin's presence in my life
• I am a solitary person, and in general do not enjoy spending time with other people